Friday, January 8, 2016

Sweet, Precious, Darling, Needy Children

"This is hard."

I said that to myself last night around 8pm as I was changing Jack's diaper. The having-two-kids thing. It's hard. 

Most of the time it's fine. It's manageable. It's fun! My cup runneth over. But sometimes it's hard. Sometimes they are both so needy in very different ways and I feel like I can only be a good mom to one of them. 

Ellie wants one on one attention and play time. These are actual things she said to me yesterday:

"MOMMY. Come sit down! I need to snuggle with you!"

"Mommy, can you please do this puzzle with me?"

"Mommy, do you want to paint with me?"

"But Mommy, I need a friend to play with!"

And then there's the buddy boy. He doesn't talk, but if he did, I expect he'd be saying the following:



"Hey. I know your hands are full and you're trying to accomplish something like helping my sister on the potty but while you're in there I thought you'd like to know that I just spit up all over everything."

"Hey. I want this pacifier really bad but you're gonna have to just sit here and hold it in."

"Just hold me or I'll scream till I almost pass out." 

"I'm super cute. You know you can't resist me. HOLD ME WOMAN."

So, last night, I fed him a bottle around 9:00. He fell asleep. I put him in his little rocker and finished watching American Idol. I ate a bowl of cereal. I went to bed. 

Grant just left the house around 5am. He woke me up to say goodbye. It was at that point that we both realized that Jack had never woken up. 

Y'ALL. He had a bottle at 9 and then I just fed him again at 5:30. EIGHT HOURS. 


It's these precious little glimmers of light that remind me that this little season is short. I can do this. 

I can do this, even if do have to sit at the table doing a craft with Ellie while also wearing Jack in a carrier and I hypothetically drop a little bit of glue on his head. Hypothetically. 

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