Tuesday, June 26, 2012

You've Got to Get Yourself Together

I've got some words :)

This blog is a diary of sorts for me. A way for me to document what's going on in my life for me to look back on years down the road. A place for me to journal and talk about the good, the bad, and the ugly.

And yesterday afternoon was somewhere between bad and ugly.

Fatigue + Discomfort + Hormones = CRAZY JEN

Let's just say there was about an hour that I sat alone in Ellie's nursery and and rocked in the rocking chair and sobbed. It wasn't one, dainty little tear. Weeping. Total wreck.

And the whole time I KNEW I was being ridiculous and I KNEW that I needed to pull myself together and that what I was crying about was not that big of a deal, but I just couldn't do it. Every time I thought I had calmed down, I'd get all revved up again.

The thing is, my first and second trimesters were a breeze. Everything was almost too perfect. Relatively symptomless. All was good. And then third trimester came....

Honestly, I have loved being pregnant. I am so happy that the Lord allowed us to have this blessing. It HAS been a joy. It IS amazing to feel her kick and turn inside of me... I am pretty sure I am going to miss that feeling. I've loved this extended one on one time with my sweet girl.

But every once in awhile, the hormones and the exhaustion takes over and I just fall apart. And that was yesterday.

However, last night I slept the WHOLE NIGHT (I didn't get up once, not even to use the bathroom!!!) and this morning I've already showered and had breakfast and a big cup of coffee and done my Bible study. Today is already much better than yesterday. And Miss Ellie is kicking up a storm.

"Today will be a better day, Mama!"

Yes it will, little girl :)

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