Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Seize the Day or Maybe Seize Tomorrow

Grant said something unintentionally the other day that kinda hurt my feelings. He said it and I bottled everything up and didn't say a word about it. But then we went to bed and I couldn't sleep. I was laying in bed and he was already asleep and I was really considering waking him up and listing out for him everything that I was feeling and when I started feeling it and what I think he should have said and what was he feeling and how does he feel about it now and what will he do in the future about my feelings and feelings feelings feelings FEELINGS!!!

Somewhere, deep down, I felt the Lord whisper, "Go to sleep, Jenny". Boo. That wasn't what I wanted to hear. "BUT I AM A LITTLE IRRITATED RIGHT NOW AND I THINK I SHOULD WAKE HIM UP AND SHARE THIS WITH HIM. YOU SAID WE SHOULDN'T GO TO SLEEP ANGRY!!" And that little voice came back and said "You aren't angry. You're annoyed. Telling him right now will do nothing. Go to sleep".

Well, fine.

So the next morning, when my husband was well rested and in a pretty good mood, I said "Hey, I need to tell you something". And it was then that I calmly, unemotionally told him that he had hurt my feelings. He was shocked to hear it and told me how sorry he was, and that sometimes he says things without realizing how it sounds and he asked for forgiveness. Then he kissed me and then I got all weak in the knees and then I thought "gosh, I love him" and then I realized that if I had woken him up in the middle of his REM cycle then that would not have played out like that.


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  2. I need to listen to that voice more often! It is SO hard to go to sleep when you are all annoyed and you look over and see them sleeping peacefully!! Glad to hear it played out nicely :)

  3. Alovely blog, I too neeed to listen to that still small voice more often.... thanks kathy x